Sensation

I got out of my bed in the morning and my husband sleeping on the other side of the bed was snoring. Getting up at five in the morning was the norm I had to follow at my in-law's place. I was half asleep; half tired when I put on the tap of the rest room. I removed my clothing and had a small laugh and an inaudible cry at the same time. "She'll be really happy after getting married. The stars are all in her favor. Don't you worry your daughter has a very bright future in that house." The astrologer had said. I am married to this beast for the last three years and no one knows of the scars he gives me every night. What could be worse than getting raped by the man you thought would be the one who would keep you the happiest! The scars on my body will fade some day but the scars on my heart will never. Maybe I'll take those scars to my grave or these scars will take me to mine.

It's a sleepy morning, the sun leaves speckles of light all over the bedsheets, and you're next to me. You're dreaming - I can tell because of the way your eyelids flutter and your lips curve upwards. I feel like maybe I'm dreaming too. We move the furniture from one room to another. Everything is mismatched and most of it in the wrong place, but we dance in the soft glow of moonlight and take our time. There is no rush with you. We haven't been to a movie in a while and you know i love action so you surprise me with a new release. I don't look at you all movie but afterward you tell me that you felt like you were falling in love with me all over again, in the middle of a movie theater, with a fight happening on the big screen. We walk back home with our fingers interlocked and i can't stop smiling at you. Sometimes, when my mind is too much, I get angry or sad or frustrated. You take my body and wrap it up in your entire being. You let me live my darkn